Time flies when you're having fun

Here it is. Almost a year since I started this blog. As you can see it has been nearly a year since I've updated this beast.

What can I say?

Today is the anniversary of my Grandmother's death. I can't believe it has been a year.
Should I feel horrible that it hasn't been as hard as I thought it would be? I can't. I cry every now and again. I cried today. But I spent so long trying to hide from how scary it would be that when reality hit me in the face I realized that the worst was in my head.

I'm going to bring some bird seed to spread on her grave tonight. She loved feeding the animals.
I think she'll smile at that.

Ok, I'm going to go cry now. Shit.